Friday, August 11, 2006

Spendy girl

I know EXACTLY what I'm doing....but does that stop me?? I have had the biggest urge lately to SHOP... to buy things. I don't know exactly what I want, but I want something. It's superficial, materialistic and only lasts a short while, but for that short while, it makes me happy. Yup, I am compensating for this cancer crap. I feel bad for the kids that I can't do much with them so I buy them stuff. Today I bought them a video (well, I think it's probably more for me... The Princess Bride is one of my favourite movies of all time and I want to share it with them). Yesterday I bought them a tether ball type game to bring to the cottage. The day before I bought them an educational game. Ryan had a gift certificate for the toy store and I bought Fun Thinkers for him and Kurtis enjoyed it so much, I went back and got the correct age level book for him. I buy them food I would never otherwise let them have. Kurtis got a pair of Crocs that he really doesn't need.

As for me? I've been feeling a little bit down the past two weeks. I know most of it is because I am exhausted and when my body is exhausted, my emotional state isn't always the best. I needed to get a new phone yesterday as a little boy, who found the phone sitting beside the sink, thought it needed a wash along with the dishes. Instead of buying the cheapest phone in the store, which I would normally do as I don't use my cell phone very much at all, I instead bought a slightly upgraded version... it's pink and has a camera! Today I bought an adaptor for the car so I can use my iPod in the car. I bought myself some new sunglasses. I've bought myself two paperback books in the past week. I bought myself a pair of Crocs as well... as if I need another pair of summer shoes. For someone who says she's exhausted, I seem to be doing a good job of getting out shopping, don't I? I'm just a very quick shopper.

Intellectually I know exactly what I'm doing and I know this isn't good for the long term. But I gotta admit,,, it's a bit fun to spend money on some toys! They're not huge purchases I know... they're not going to break the bank, but it's something I'm very conscious of as I don't like to buy stuff "just because". In the meantime, the kids are loving it! :)

And maybe I'll just go out and get a speaker set to go with the iPod so we can have some music up at the cottage.....

5 comments:

Clare said...

Hey Annette - shopping therapy is a documented cure for the blues. It sounds like you're still in control, so indulge yourself a little. You surely deserve it!

Unknown said...

Sounds like you 'spendy girl' is just the right medicine for you right now!!! Sounds like you have had fun buying some fun things. Emma Sage has crocs and she lives in them these days....

The cottage sounds delightful and I'm hoping you get to take a few 'cellphone camera' pictures to share of your time relaxing at the cottage.

Sending you lots of love and healing thoughts.

Anonymous said...

Hello Annette, i don't know if you remember me or not,Brenda VanderHout(Nauta) I just wanted you to know that you and your family are often in my thoughts and prayers. We have been there also with our oldest child and i know only to well how this effects everyone in your family. You ar a very strong woman. You have a great circle of friends and family that care for you, hold on tight to your faith, God will never leave you alone. I love reading your updates. Keep it up okay? Lots of love and positive thoughts are going your way,Brenda

Anonymous said...

Annette,
Some of us will use any excuse to shop or buy. You, I think are about the only one who has a valid excuse. Shop till you drop, girl! Some bad habits are theraputic ie: smoking, shopping. Enjoy
Prayers always, Coby and boys.

The Mom said...

Shopping therapy - yup - it's the best kind :) Hope you have a great time at your cottage, and I'm pretty sure you DO need some speakers to go with that IPOD :)